I have so many thoughts right now…
I’m coming home tomorrow. I will land in the states to spend time with my awesome brother, Dave, for a week. Then spend another week celebrating a wedding with my squad from the World Race. And then it’s home for me. As I have attempted to process this transition, there’s been many thoughts that have crossed my mind.
I’m so afraid that the box that I have been in my whole life will surround me as I leave this incredible season. I’m graduating from G42 and it is definitely time to come home. I don’t need to have more imparted to me. I need to give it away. But I want to acknowledge the fear and face it head on. And once again I choose to be completely honest and open in this process.
Today I had a conversation with some important people in my life and they asked me to remember what this past week has been like for me. As I remembered, I was blessed and so I would like to share with you.
We started the week with George Ridley. While this man cares deeply for others, he is also a realist and VERY good at asking questions that make you think. He spoke over and over again about having good work ethic and being a person of honor in it all. I was challenged again to be a person who follows through on my dreams even when it is hard work.
Thursday morning was an incredible time of relationship and release. Each of the graduates was prayed over and released into following their commitments and callings. During the prayer so much was given to me. Life was breathed into my spirit and I will claim those words as I go home. Thursday night was graduation with lots of pictures and blessings.
And then Friday. 🙂 Friday evening I climbed the mountain with Evin Feit and Nate Evans. As we hiked, we had some bomb conversations about heaven and made some plans to go white-water rafting, eat sandwiches, and do some awesome star-gazing when we get there (to heaven). After we watched the sunset and I froze my bum bum off, we started to come down in the dark with our headlamps. Halfway down we hit a clearing made of gravel and decided to lay down to star gaze. Little did we know we would be bombarded by God’s presence. After laying there for 20 minutes I thought we would get up and leave until…. dun dun duuuun. Laughter hit us like a ton of bricks. We laughed so hard (for no apparent reason) that our stomachs were cramping and our cheeks were hurting. And then… we laughed some more! It was INCREDIBLE! I am convinced that our laughter broke off some strongholds. When we were done, all three of us had a peace settle deep in our hearts.
Saturday morning we finished off with a sunrise hike, and one last family dinner on Sunday night eating Parmesan chicken and beautiful salad.
What a finish to a beautiful time here in Spain.
I started this blog by saying that I’m coming home soon. As I have been here I have grown in my confidence, identity, and intimacy with the Lord. I’ve become comfortable in this place. It is now time for a new season. Like Samuel receiving a new jacket every year from his mother Hannah, I am about to have a jacket placed on my shoulders that is a little big. My commitments and plans are about to be tested and tried until they come out refined and shining with purity. I will need to grow in order to fit into this jacket. But in the words of Rafiki from the Lion King “It is time”
In the ending scene of the Lion King, Simba hugs Rafiki and releases him to his new position. As Simba strides to take his place as king, the clouds open to the sound of his father’s voice speaking “remember”… “remember who you are” Simba pulls his head back to release a roar that shakes the earth. There is a roar in my spirit that also needs to be released. And I don’t think it can be until I confidently take the steps to the place God has for me. So once again, I will change jackets and step up to the place of confidence, leadership, and humility that this next season will call for…